As we face the hard realities of life on our own, the echoes of parental care stay around, and the heart longs for the unconditional love and security that once resided in the arms of home.
Lucky are those who are still kids or with their families. Well, being unwell was more like being pampered by your parents, resting the entire day, and realizing that you aren’t alone because the reality is when you go down, you realize the importance of family and unconditional love even more.
I left home just after my graduation, it was 2015. Then also with one Hello! Matta, I am not feeling well or Papa, I miss your pampering, the very next moment I would have them in front of me. I was one of those who were blessed with the best. A non-toxic family, friends, and most importantly PARENTS.
Beta, you have a sore throat, no worries if you don’t feel like eating anything, just rest and let me make your favorite Sooji Kheer (Semolina pudding). The hot pipping kheer will help soothe your sore throat and then you just sleep. Beta, you are down? Is that time of the month? Oh pls! Don’t worry, Dad will get everything including your favorite brownie and you just don’t worry, JUST REST, BETA.
While I write this, I am realising more and more how difficult adulting can be, especially when you are used to all the love and care and suddenly find yourself alone, trying to be Independent and ALONE.
I miss being unwell and being extra loved. In this hustle of life, I miss being a little less independent and a bit more dependent on pure love. Here, we are now, sneezing and excusing ourselves during work calls, running daily errands, and just saying it to ourselves- oh! It’s just a common flu, I will pop the pills, work, watch reels, and will be fine. We are all just hiding the known truth which is- no one is going to come for us, so better fend for yourself and move on.
As our duties increase and life unfolds, we face a series of difficulties that shape us. Independence frequently comes at the expense of innocence, and adulthood’s experiences shape us into strong individuals. We learn to confront the world alone, make difficult decisions, and bear the burden of our duties. However, beneath the outward appearance of strength, there is a profound craving for the love and comfort of home, where vulnerability is met with unshaken support.
Deep down, we all long for the comforting familiarity of family and the comfort it provides. The hustle and bustle of daily life can distract us, yet there is a deep need for the hug of loved ones and the security of a place we once called home. During the voyage of self-discovery and independence, the heart secretly wants the warmth of shared laughter, the reassurance of familial links, and the unconditional love that serves as an anchor in the sea of life’s uncertainties.
“ With every sneeze and sleepless dreadful night, I am inching a step closer to you. I am fine, I promise myself and others but deep inside there is a fire that is spreading, shouting within not to lie. I am fine, I promise myself but with each passing day, I miss what I had and the love grows stronger. I am inching a step closer to you”.-RVA.
